Happi Birthday to Mummie!!!! It's Mummie's birthday! We had a little celebration at Novena Square's Fish n Co.... Ordered two large BBQ seafood platters... wow!!! yummie... also had raspberry soda and Sharkie Freeze- ice blended passion fruit drink.
I may sound stupid but i reallydunno how a passion fruit looks like. I thought it was a maroon colour fruit. but, Brother Thomas corrected me. It was a yellow fruit. I was tricked by Brother Thomas. My brother is a great joker. And i'm always the one to be joked by him too. haha.
"How does the passion fruit look like, kor?" I asked my brother, Thomas.
Then he replied, "Hmmm... very easy wad... Very passion lo... ..."
Me, "dotz... ..."
Had a great time eating and laughing at the jokes that we shared at the table. Mummie, mi, Sister, and my two Brothers.
Heard from Mummie that we will be moving out on 28 September 07, which is veri soon lo... but, to where??? I simply have no idea yet cos Mummie said that we have to wait for HDB's response... sigh.. but i know that definitely we will have a place to stay de... hee... i remembered Rev. Huang told us before during one of the sermons. He said, "If people ask you where you stay, just reply Singapore. But if people ask you where you live, the answer will be Heaven!" Yes. I believe in God. I believe in God's plans. I'm always blessed. :p
Ok, tomorrow still have to go to church early for the preparations for the church's 20th anniversary performance. Gotta sleep soon. ya ya, also.... Mummie, sorry that I din manage to get you a birthday cake this year. cos' I dun have enough money. But next year I will, ok? Happy birthday!:p good night.
~{10:22 AM} Angelic
Wednesday, August 29, 2007
Love ur love ones I was surfing the net just now... doing a project on the graduation for prisons... Though a bit dry, i came to a particular page where i find this little paragraph that i find it interesting and meaningful. it really reminds mi that we should love our love ones.No matter how much wrongdoings that they had done, we should still learn to be forgiving and always accepting. No one knows what will happen to yr love ones in future. They might be one of the unfortunate ones who end up in somewhere where no one wants to be-prison.
Sometimes, how i wish that my dad will be sent to the prison. In my heart, he's always a negative character. Since young, i have always been a punch bag for him. Got bruises all over my body. I hate him. Simply, i just hate him. Few years ago, Mum filed a divorce with him and fought over my custody. From then onwards, he did not hurt mi physically, but mentally. "You are not my daughter! You are a bastard! You should have died earlier! Why must i hold the responsibility to bring you up?! Don't you ever hope that I will take care of you! You are not my business!" These words are always bombarded at me, just like acid pouring over wound, again and again. Well, me and him now seems to be nobody to each other. I wouldn't want to talk to him anymore cos' I do not want to be hurt again.
Whatever it is, no matter how much I hate him, how much that i didn't talk and look at him, i had given up the hope. Maybe this way of giving up is also a way to release myself from those bad memories...
"The husband is inside the iron bars, the wife is outside the iron bars, looking in, So near they are only separated by inches, And yet so distant, like sky and depths of the sea. What no words utter, their desperate eyes relate, Before every word their eyes brim with tears. Who could stand here and watch their meeting unmoved?"
~{11:18 PM} Angelic
Monday, August 27, 2007
Money... where? Sigh... another tiring day this morning when i came for attachment at ELDC... there isn't any job allocated to us for the time being.. jus felt tired cos din have a good sleep last night. what i kept thinking last night is about money. it's simply not enough. Dad has not been giving mi money for some time. although Mum has been giving me after that, she cut the amount. It's really not enough for me as I'm having three meals outside, no food at home.
Read through some emails just now... received an email which most of the words are typed in pink font. guess i should know who is the sender before i continue reading the mail. it's from humanlink, sent by one of my "Caramel" babes, Lina lo... lol. she's the fan of pink, pink is her life man... ok... the mail was about some part-time jobs that are recommended to students. I was interested in the sales promoter job that promotes Mandom Pte Ltd., Lucido Hair Products and the Mooncake Sales Promoter job at Goodwood Hotel. ytd I got a tuition centre's hotline from Kat... I'm still considering if I should make a call and try out as a tuition teacher... cos I love kids. but, heard fro Kat that the first pay we will only be receiving 50% of it, because the other 50% goes to the tuition agency... is it good? will i make a loss? ai yoh, I'm so desperately over jobs now.. i really need money. with Mum cutting down my expenses, I really cant survive any longer. what should I do? which jobs should I choose?
~{6:00 PM} Angelic
Saturday, August 25, 2007
Prata nite... Today's a long day... the last rehearsal before our actual church youth production tomorrow... everyone is doing well... seeing everyone improve is a great satisfaction to me. because i wrote the script and i directed throughout the production... they really put their efforts into the production... seeing them memorising their lines and trying to express their best of the character that they are assign to, running behind in the backstage for quick change... there's so many to mention... and definitely all of us have gelled up quite a bit... it's a good thing... thank God for this...
After the rehearsal, we, the 5 girls, ahma, ahmei, yun meimei, ahma(no.2) and me went to the crispy prata at Upper Thomson Road together with our one and only Sister Zhiming, the so-called ahmin hehe... he should feel fortunate lo... can go out with 5 pretty ladies for prata and Yishun dam to enjoy the night breeze... haha... (bleh) well, i did quite enjoy this time cos it's been a long time that we have not been to prata liao... luckily Zhiming got car so that he can drive us for supper and also drive us home one by one... hee.. okok... but it's quite funny when i come to think about it... why did all the girls sit at the back and left me to sit next to Zhiming? are they creating chances? haha... stop thinking stupid things gal... this dream will never come true... you have been loving him for so long and he still got no response for you, meaning that he's totally not interested in you. so wad for loving him so much? give up gal. keep your options open... i think i realli should.. treat him like a friend and there might be better memories... should i still love him as a fren or love him like something else? can anyone tell mi?
i've tried to get over about him. but things isn't so easy.. u were not mi. speaking from the mouth is easy, but when u wanna do it with yr heart, yr heart bleeds... u get wad i mean? like such things- prata suppers, driving mi home and many more jus reminds mi of the past when we were veri close... tonight's prata realli makes mi recall alot of things... still remembered that he will always order teh alia during prata suppers...he also love kambing soup... i wonder if anyone will notice him that much like i do? wad bout him? does he understand mi much??? how i wish he can also understand mi like the way i understand him... ... but i think he will never do that, never. cos the trust faded away... i don't know why...
~{11:46 AM} Angelic
Friday, August 24, 2007
BABIE COIN- MY FLASH PRODUCTION
~{10:10 AM} Angelic
Thursday, August 23, 2007
Own thoughts-tiredness...n happiness with a skirty... Yesterday, after my attachment, I went to Alexandra Road to look for my sister at her office. She had found some lobang for me and requested me to be her office girl for the evening. It was quite a tiring day for me actually... attachment in the morning 8.30pm til 5.30pm, then travel all the way down to the office to help my sister with the photocopying...
Before I reach the office, I went to Queensway Shopping Centre to shop for a piece of flowery skirt. The reason why I have broke my own promise of "not spending for shopping this month" is because of my uncomfortable tight jeans, that makes me feel so suffocated. I swear that I won't wear it again. Sometimes I do wonder, why do girls like to wear tight fitting clothes? Isn't it very "xin ku"?? Although I'm one of those haha... That's the problem. Maybe it's time to give up my pair of tight tight jeans man...
Well, bought the piece of grey skirt with white roses design and i feel so much better now... I feel so "Lady" lol. Hmm, I had realised that my skirt and my sister's look about the same lo.. ehh... perhaps it's a trend now. hehe... my crave for skirts like those seem to be high now, got it "caramels"??? (hint* for my birthday present lol)
After the few hours of tiring photocopying in the office, Sister and I went to a 24-hr coffee shop at Punggol Park for our dinner. The time then was already 10.26pm. Dinner so late. But, din complain much cos it was Sister's treat- popiah, wanton mee and teh-o. yumyum!!!:) had a great chat with her till 11plus. Reach her house by taxi at almost 12am. SHIT!!! I forgot that it's Friday, still got attachment man.. sigh.. quickly tuck myself into bed after a quick shower.zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.............................
Woke up at 6.45am, still tired. Took an hour to travel to school. Now sitting in my project room with a pair of panda eyes. Jasmine, my new ELDC fren looks sick... she talk very softly and sometimes I can't really hear what she says.. haha.. don't overwork yourself ya? do see a doctor soon...:) alright, very slack now.. not slack from ELDC but I slack myself lo haha... no mood to do the 2nd "Flash" project for now.. maybe surf the net first hehe.. when to carry on with "Flash"??? later la....... :)
~{5:45 PM} Angelic
Wednesday, August 22, 2007
ONE MAJOR PROJECT, COMPLETED!!! Finally!!! My "Flash" E-resume was completed this afternoon and had submitted to Mr. Woon, my ELDC supervisor.. For your info, ELDC stands for E-Learning Development Centre.. thanks to Mr. Woon for teaching me how to use the "Flash" program.. now i feel so satisfied.. finally a "computer moron" knows something so interesting... graphics and animations le...see, i'm so bright now...hehe...
ahh... finally can take a rest.. hmm... suddenly jus dun feel like thinking bout anything.. be it happy or sad ones.. think so much are also useless... jus like wad beatrix and jialing had said,
" Don't think so much. Be happy and be who you are."-- Beatrix "Leave it to God and He will do the rest. It's pointless for you to think so much. You are still young and keep your options open. God has th best plans for you."--Jialing.
I know i sholud listen to them. i'm still young... there's still many other guys out there for me to pick and choose from. why bother and wait and wait and wait? wait til the cows come home??? hahaha... if he's realli mine, he will come to mi no matter wad. i won't even bother which girl he's seeing in the late night. anyway, that's nne of my business wad... lol.
Alright, munch on to my Ritz Cheese Biscuits... yay!!! reward myself from the hardwork from "Flash" hehe... the biscuits played an important part man... cheese makes mi happy and high!!! hee! yum yum!!!
Depressed... Past few days I was very depressed... cos' things jus happen too suddenly n I can't accept the fact that I suffered some back problems. Last Friday, Beatrix accompanied me to see a Chinese sinseh in Toa Payoh. According to what the sinseh had told me, my backbone went out of place. Is it because i used to twist my back frequently in the past? this might be one of the cause. The sinseh told mi that i was involved in too much activities, hence, not having enough rest. What I have been doing is dance, in school n in church. However, I will not blame dance because it is my passion. Mr sinseh had advised me to cut down on my vigourous activities, in this way will then help me recover. Because of my back, I told Xiangyun that I cant play the banner(flag) in the 1 Sept's performance for our church's 20th anniversary. I can't. I felt so demoralized... Because of all these, i have not been sleeping well lately. My attachment started again and i fell sick. Got high fever last night and veri heavy flu. Last night, Dad quarrelled with me deliberately and threatened not to give mi allowance again. So, I came to school without allowance this morning. Still have to pay Treasa the amount for the ballet performance tickets, $14, and i'm paying for Beatrix and Esther first. So, it's $42. Where can i get the money? I'm going dry. Perhaps, i shall realli withdraw from my bank account- a balnce less than $200. Today is Tuesday, I should be going to the studio at 6.30pm for dance practice. But look at my condition now, i really have to let it go for some time. I felt so sorry.. for my dancers in DanzInc., cos' i'm the President, and i'm not there to oversee.. I can't do my job well.. kind of giving up myself.. cos i might not be able to dance that well anymore...
SHOPPING... FORGOT WHERE.. SOMEWHERE IN BUGIS BA...
EAST-COAST BIATCH..
SPLIT LE... MUSCLE TEAR MAN..
ACTING "BUAY SONG"... BORED!
CHIO BIATCH.. HA!