Monday, October 29, 2007

A Special Drawing for Me

Last night, I was busy rushing with my EFMA in the room. A familiar voice called at my name from the door. It was Little Winnie. She looked at me with a pair of big, round eyes and smiled at me, showing her set of shiny white teeth. She then said, "jie jie, can you teach me piano?" Right at that moment I was kind of busy, because my EFMA has not been completed, left with 3 more questions to go. Therefore, I have to disappoint Little Winnie for the time being as I could only teach her after I finish my assignments.

Me: "9.00pm ok? I have to finish my homework first."

Winnie: "Ok, Jie jie, I wait for you. Later I come in."

5 minutes before 9.00pm, Winnie hopped into the room again. I had only done up to Question 4 of EFMA's tutorial.

Winnie: " Jie jie, you haven't finish your homework ar?"

Me: " Ya. But, I promised you that I will teach you piano. Alright, I will continue my homework later. (there I go, I procrastinate again.. haa)

Just as I was shifting the boxes out of our way and bringing two chairs into my room, Little Winnie gave me a piece of drawing that she had drawn while she was waiting for me to finish up my tutorial. She claimed that it was a drawing of me, a crayon-drawn girl wearing an orange dress. My name was written above the drawing too. She had also written that the drawing was drawn by her ("from: winnie") What a sweet girl she is! The best part was that she coloured the dress orange, which is my favourite colour! I'm so touched by her! A priceless gift that I have from a 7 year old girl! I'm going to show the drawing to everyone!!!:)

~{6:40 PM}
Angelic

Tuesday, October 23, 2007

I Love My Presents!!! The Moments are Precious too!!!

Few days passed my birthday and I realised that this year's birthday was a special and memorable one for me.

Sayang and Porn Queen gave me a white INK bag ( I don't have to buy bag liao haa), Elmo gave me a little Precious Moments box with a ballerina bracelet ( I could put all my earrings in the box and wear the bracelet when I love to), Sis gave me a wonderful feast at The Soup Restaurant as she knows that I love Chinese cuisine and Fuan Cake and Zhongyue bought me a slice of sinful chocolate cake with the complement of a little Birthday Song by themselves (it was a surprise). I'm so touched and I felt so fortunate to have friends like them. Hmmm, also not forgetting that many others who came to me and even added a comment in my blog and friendster to give me their wishes. Though simple, but i really appreciate it alot...:) I don't know how to describe this but, I'm really to have you all as my friends!!! You love me right? hahaha!!!

Hmm, Porn Queen and I had thought of going Sentosa for a little potluck gathering. Elmo can go, Sayang not sure yet... Porn Queen bringing her Win Win along too... hahaha... time to tease her liao... make her malu!!! hehehe... Look forward to it man...

Ok, time to study in ePlaza liao... do not disturb... macam faham... hehehe...

~{1:08 AM}
Angelic

Sunday, October 21, 2007

Partially Settled

Yesterday, my church teacher arranged a time for me and Esther (my best life friend)and Beatrix ( a sister that no longer exists) to clear things out and to settle the dispute which we had for the past month. I did not refuse to turn up, because I want to know what's going on, what's wrong with me.

I started voicing out my opinions regarding the problem, crude in a way because I made it clear to them that if it's really my repetition of problems and complaints that ruin their mood, please allow me to know then I will stop whatever I wish to tell them. Then I came to realise that (from what they had said), I have to know my limitations of venting out my frustrations, and not to take it for granted that they have to help me in all ways and all times and not always expecting anything more from them, because thay had given me more than enough... this is just their perception about me, have they really asked how i felt? At that point of time, I realised that they do not understand me at all. Else, they won't be saying that. My dear friends, do you know what I'm asking for as a friend? What I really want is just a listening ear. I do not mind you being quiet sitting next to me without giving me any solutions to my own problems. I do not need you to sympathize me. What I want is just a comfort without saying a word, at most just a pat on my back. Is this that you can't even do? As a friend of yours, I'm just expecting that much. Because, being there for accompany is the only priceless value that can only be found in a real friendship. Do you understand?

Although I was taken aback from what you have told me, you said that you feel that you care for me more than I care for you, you feel like you acted more like the elder sister rather than me being the elder one, you said that you can even spend time with me for meals after church services but I did not do that to you, you said that you feel that I always wanted to fight for anything and make myself to the top and make eveyone realise my presence. Is these all what you think about me? Why is it so calculative? Are you asking me back for a return? If it is really so, then who's there when you broke down at the staircase when you broke off with your boyfriend? Who's there to pick up your mobile phone when you threw it down the steps? Who's there to console you when you broke down in tears in the train when you quarrelled with your mother? Who's there to give you the biggest birthday card, self-baked cookies, and ice cream mooncake from Haagen Dazs during your birthdays? Who? It's me. All along these years, what you have seen in me is just the bad side. Have you reflected about me in the positive side? I know you made your time out to spent time with me for dinners after church service because you know that I'm always eating out and no one cooks in my family. I appreciated it. But, please don't do that if you sympathize me. I didn't like to be seen in that way (pity). Family problem is a thing that will ponder you for years, it's not easy to forgive and forget. You think it's easy, because your parents are not divorced. Somehow, felt insulted by what you had commented. I had nothing much to say, but just a big thank you because you made me understand how you felt, and made me understand that you didn't know me well-all along we were arguing like hell.

Best friend, I understood what you were trying to say. Though you didn't speak much during the conversation, your opinions gave me a lesson. I will try to tame down and be aware of the limitations. You did not argue with me like the way she did. You knew that I was emotionally breaking down and you knew i am a sensitive person. You are tactful at words and you know what you are talking. I'm really glad that you understand and want me to change. I will try my best to do that. I understand that everyone has their own family problems. Even you have one one day, I will be there to give you a listening ear. So, please give me some time to change myself. Will you? I'm glad that you straightened out your hand to shake mine as a form of reconciliation. I'm glad that you made me involved to the coming party that you are inviting me in November. This really shows that you are giving me a chance to be better. I'm grateful to you. Though I understand that in the past, you might feel awkward too becuase both me and her were in the same school and we have alot of common conversations. However, I need to tell you this, no matter who enters my life, no one will replace my best life friend- Esther Peh Wanqian aka Ahma. I'm sorry. I knew that this argument is the very first and big one that inflicted upon us in our 19 years of friendship and definitely in future we will not be that close anymore. But at least, now that we can still talk and smile to each other.

~{8:24 PM}
Angelic

Saturday, October 20, 2007

My Birthday Dinner at The Soup Restaurant

San Zhong Liang Jian Wet Tissue on my plate. :)

"House Dish" :)

Lettuce Wrappers whoo!!!:p

Trying to get a shot w/o getting them notice!!!:)

Me at the waiting area.:)

The Soup Restaurant-traditional Chinese design.:)

Dining tables. Mine was a big round one, not here but a few more steps inside.:)

My dining set...:)

~{5:20 AM}
Angelic

Friday, October 19, 2007

My birthday! my new life!

Today, is my birthday... ok kinda solemn haha... first of all... whoever wants to sing mi a birthday song, please do it in the tag box hahaha... buay pai sey... k k... 19 liao must b more serious... haha... cannot le... got the fuan disease le lah!!! hahaha... thanks to claris...:p

Ytd, got a white INK bag from Lyna n Sayang... my fav colour... yesh!!! daph made mi laugh my lungs out la... she say she haven wrap... hahaha...:) then during lunch, fuan cake and ZY bought mi a slice of choc cake, so sinful!!! but. i like!!! in the evening, my sis and bro-in-law brought mi to a chinese restaurant for dinner... well well, it was realli sumptious... yummie!!! cant describe so much, cos i was busy gobbling the food lo haha... this yr's birthday is kinda different... even the KaKa in the family that i'm living with knows it's my birthday...:)

K:"today jie jie birthday hor?"

Mi:"ya..."

K:"happy birthday jie jie..."

Mi:"thank you"

conversation takes place in the kitchen while she was pouring some water... haha... so random... bleh...:p but, i'm veri happi already...:) got birthday wish, birthday song, birthday cake, birthday present, birthday dinner... my gawd!!! alot liao...great!!! satisfied... satisfaction>expectation= satisfied customer... so marketing sia. study hard hor... 19 liao, be more serious in studies...

As for the new place, it's been quite good for mi... did a bit of saving up cos KaKa cooked everyday haha... kiasu mi. everyone is good to mi... jus good la... dunno how to describe le... little winnie still likes mi veri much... she always wants mi to teach her in her homework whenever she came home, she will pop into my room and will ask the same questions, "jie jie, have u eaten?" or "jie jie haven sleep ar?"... haa... i can realli feel family love right now...

~{7:36 PM}
Angelic

Sunday, October 14, 2007

First day of school

Today is the first day of school! Supposedly, my first lesson starts at 1pm. But, right at this time, 8.30am, I have to report to SBM eplaza. WTH!!! Few days back I thot that i could meet up with the Caramels, HuiQi, Hazel and Jimmy for breakfast... But, to my disappointment, eplaza stopped mi from it... no other students here right now besides me and two other lab assistants, Pauline and XiaoXuan. So bored! Simply no one come to sign in la... first day of school and i have to wake up so early like TEP days... my god my god my god!!!!! So tired, so hungry! Nothing much to do for now... jus wanna blog a bit of boring stuff so that I can make use of the time...

Well well, I was sun burnt since last Thursday, but it got worst because i went swimming again on Saturday... red like a lobster/ roast pig... blame myself for being naughty... bleh!!! Not very red now, jus kinda tanned...A tiring weekend... move ALL my belongings to the new place and reached home at almost 12am this morning. Got a bunch of keys from the landlord...Will be moving in today after school... a new environment, a new life... I must be strong and protect myself...:p

~{7:00 PM}
Angelic

Wednesday, October 10, 2007

Last few days of ELDC

Yesterday, took a few hours flexi leave and went to AMK Central to shop... why on earth so free huh? haa... cos it's the last few days of tep, so i can claim my OT and flexi leave... hmm, saw a piece of black top and find it rather nice, material is good, affordable price, worth the money... but, i did'nt buy haha... RuanDong was asking why I din buy since it looks good... but i feel that i dun need it so i din buy lo... Now that I'm working, and i will start to realise that money is hard to earn... so, thought about that black dress for some time, n eventually decided not to buy it. dun waste money ma... school opening liao... need to save money to buy books de leh...

In the blink of an eye, 9 weeks had passed... ELDC is ending soon... it's gonna be another stage of life in school... back to academic studies... will be learning French language for my elective, class 5 ..:)

Look forward to seeing Nadia, Daph and HuiQi in school... it's been like 2 months that i din see them... miss them dearly... haa.. never miss lina, jimmy and hazel that much la... cos they in school tep ma... can see lina every morning lo.. cos her humanlink rm is jus oposite my eldc/km rm... jimmy is in bsu rm, jus a few steps away. hazel's in cheers.. will get to see her whenever she's on shift.. :)

However, I can feel that I can't bear to leave eldc/km leh... all these 9 weeks, the friendships that i have bonded with the bubbly group and work on projects and presentations together with them... it's a long way through... now that it's going to end. feel so sad... tearing man... sob...:( i dun like ELDC/KM... but i love the people here... they are the ones who brings happiness to my life when i'm down, esp bout the endless problems that i faced lately... they really had painted a very beautiful picture in my life... wanna thank them, but if i start to say that, afraid that i will break out in uncontrollable tears... today, we had pizza and kfc together at BLK B, Level 4. Then tml, we'll be having steamboat together at night right after attachment... :) this should be the last time that we will be together, to eat, to laugh like mad dogs, n tell horrible jokes... soon soon.. end end... luckily i have got some of their msn, then could still further contact them in future...:) argh... 9 weeks so fast, sob!!!

Will be starting class next week, then will transform back into a pure student... study life... BUT, with "Caramels" around, I believe that we will chat and gossip and laugh until we die! hahaha!!! Look forward to everything... and not to forget the people from EMRS and ELDC/KM, cos u guys had gave me lots and lots of wonderful memories!!! Love you all!!!

Claris: "Your blog hor... can take you ages to write leh..."

Kat: " Ya lo... cos her words are endless..."

Mi: "No, cos' i'm always inspired..."

LOL.

~{12:26 AM}
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