Worries about school and dance
Lately, i couldn't sleep well. toss and turn myself on the bed for many times and will then get to sleep at about 1am. i had many worries, esp about school and danzinc...It's been almost a month of academic and i'm still trying hard to adapt to study life like last year... this semester's modules were really tough- 8 modules. the contents or I should say what Nadia had said before, "substance" were really heavy. during lectures, i'm always feeling tired. sometimes find myself quite slow in absorbing the things taught from the lecturers. always ended up copying one of their notes as i can't catch up. I felt so scared. the same feeling like the 'O' level year... I'm afraid that i cant score well this time. really.then for danzinc, i heard many things from daphne. things hasn't been really going that well like it used to be. many juniors are quitting. sue has gone. steve has gone. sarah has gone. syakirah has gone. rachel has gone. eugene has gone. regina has gone. and now yiyan is quitting too... so many... what has happened? is it because of stress? or that they can't stand the system or club behavior? even the senior numbers has been decreasing. that's the reason why i understand that peter calls for an open and close audition. I feel lost as I have not been in danzinc for some time because of family matters. that time I also thought of quitting but peter doesn't allow me to. because i'm the Head/ President of DanzInc. that's why peter gave me 3 months to settle everything. I feel bad as I left the studio without a word to meixian. jus didn't know how to tell her. cos she always want me to be the one listening. that's why i find it no point to tell her but tell Zelia instead. I hope that everyone will understand my reasons for being absent for this period of time. I've seen many blog posts and pictures of danzinc camp and performances, which i really felt happy for all of them. i wish that i can come back very soon. cos i missed all of them. couldn't stop my rolling down when i see all of them performing at the atrium during lunchtime performance. I really miss you guys... do you guys miss mi?I really dunno when i will be able to return to DanzInc. cos the moving is still going on. the place that i'm living now is only for a few months. then will shift again, but to where i'm still unsure of. study stress piling, moving stress too. i'm so worried for the dancers as well. really cannot be sure when i will go back and dance with them again. how i wish i can. if one day when i return, will anyone still remember that I'm the Dance Head?
