Feeling unwell.. yet made reflections...
I woke up at 2.30pm... last night told yaoyong that i will go for the morning service...but, something's not right with my stomach this morning... so unwell... my tummy felt like drums... is it beer diarrhea? i think i had stomach flu... had diarrhea a few times already... tummy still aching... sigh... din manage to go for the afternoon service either... i am so unwell... this is jus the beginning of the holidays... sigh...I was surfing the net and reading frenzies' blogs... saw sayang's blog... she posted a video of her composed malay song... meant for her boyfie:p Sayang, i really love yr song! Although i din understand what the lyrics meant... but i heard a few words like "cinta ku" something like that... it really makes mi realise the power of love... initially after my first experience, i became so afraid of relationships and wanna jus be alone-single... but after i heard yr song, i reflected to myself and feel that it is time for mi to walk out from the world that i perceived to have nightmares from the previous relationship... last time, i dun believe in love... i felt that men toys with our feelings... i really hope that men wont be like this... i wanted to find a true love...Yup, and Claris... thanks for calling mi last night and we shared so much... i think i really poured out alot to u on all my main problems... practically it's all about myself.. what's hidden in me... my fears of love... thank you for being there...:)And Bestie, i remembered u telling mi that not all relationships are the same... a real love and a friendship is different... it's a different feeling... love is someone to love you for who u are... to be there and be with you... stand by you... care for u and dun expect any returns... and even accept you for your weaknesses and helping you to change for the better... it's really something that you cant feel it from a friendship... friendship is important too... i understand... thank you for sharing your woes with mi too... worry not as it is still within our walls...:)Well, it's time that i should let it go and walk out from the world of nightmares... love... when will the true one be? please dun toy with feelings... cos it makes the heart sheds blood...
