Pissed brothers day... n kinda disappointed..,
Sigh... sometimes i just dun understand, why do younger brothers tend to say lies and leave their elder sister to wipe the shit from their ass... little brother was very childish today, even though he is maturing at this puberty stage.. yet, sigh... i kinda got maligned by elder brother for starting the stupid thing with the real fact that younger brother was the one who started first...He is growing up, and now his hands are bigger than mine... his foot size is bigger than mine too... even his strength... he is so strong... tt i cant even control his strength and got "bullied" by him under his "power"/"energy"... so demoralized... i was so pissed off... my wrists are being squeezed hard and the red marks are the evidence... yet, i was still like being alleged to be the wrong party...So pissed that i went to the park for a walk alone... walked for 10 bloody rounds... deep breath with each step... perhaps that can soothe me down better... well, a good exercise... then met Sayang for a chat at the coffee shop... talked and laughed like nobody's biz...though our drinks were green tea and not beer hahaha...Received sms from "Hubby"... he might not be going for performance with me on Sat... cos he might be going to club battling with other dancers... sigh... wad can i say? i dun wanna force u either... jus hope that u can go wif me lo... if not i dunno who to go wif... sigh... i jus wanna see you... but it seems so difficult...